Ce soir...

Je découvre ce que ça fait d'être transi par la douleur, le froid et la peur.

And I just want to fucking die...

So cold

How can I be lost?
When the path is just a dark tunnel.
Searched the seas of hope.
How come it got so cold?
How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive.

How?

Once in my life,
I would like to understand my role.
What am I supposed to do?
What am I supposed to be?
Again, I feel like I'm in the wrong place.
Not doing what I should be doing.
Wasted knowledge.
Train of life passing by.
I've made history, yet no one knows.
How my talent can be measured,
If no one knows what I've done?

Scars

I a made of scars
Stitch me again
I'm still bleeding
Remind me of blades and rain
Yes I made of scars
Pain is daily meal

Dying in the cold

Lost, alone
Crying out in the cold
Cheap whisky to warm me
Hating myself for what I am

I'm the ghost of myself
A soulless shadow
For the first time, I'm afraid
Just shoot me and let me be
'Caus yes I love you,
Yet I'm a waste

Broken

They didn’t break me. I am broken.

Fuck you all

Fuck you all, and nightmare,
Hitting life with my bare hands.
I need a voice to release myself
From this cage

Seriously,
Fuck you all, I don't fucking care,
I've seen death, on my doorstep.
Almond scent, cyanide gas
Anger, in my glass

I feel my world break
Like an old bread
Hard to see clear
Is it me?
Is it ire?

Adrenaline
Painkilling anger
The machine is on
Rest assured,
It won't be long.
A split second,
To split your skull.
Blood filled eyes
Fuck this life

Pain

A sensation that was persecuted endlessly
Exterminated by the structured war machine
I will remember, let the story be told
To realize how I lost my humanity

All that I have left inside is a soul that's filled with emptiness
The brave society, didn't end up killing me
Scream with me, never again

Full of broken friends
I cannot repair
Beneath the fall of time
The feelings disappear
I am someone else
Still I'm not right here

Everything good I've done
Goes away, in the end
Pain is my burden
The fiend resting in my head
Will follow me
To my grave

Realising

All I can say,

I'm lucky to have you.

Because I'm fucking lost,

And I don't know who I am,

And what I should do.

Still, I'm sure of one thing,

Damn I love you.

Unskilled

Ignorance is bliss.

Why can't I just be dumber?

My life would be simpler.

And I would be happy,

With an ordinary job.

Why I want to do something significant,

When I have no skills to do so?

I do not fit,
In this world.
Short tamper,
No patience,
No soul.

What do you do,
When you're only good at surviving?
What do you do,
When you're only good at destroying?

I should have died long ago.
I'm too tired.
Now let me sleep,
In the arms of intoxicating pain.

Troubled mind

Strange creature,
Shouldn't have been born,
Yet, too weak to die.
The ghosts of the pasts,
Are coming back tonight.
Fuck you all,
I'm leaving Las Vegas.

To War

Patience is wearing thin,
Wrongdoing anyhow.
Trying to pressure on,
Just woke the monster.
Follow the blood trail,
Right through hell.

Go down, fall,
Then, rise again.
What don't kill you,
Make you more strong.

I'm pain, I'm hope, I'm sickness.

I guess you guessed wrong.

He who does not fear death,
Cares not for threats.
Thank you for closing the fortress.
I'll patch my scars,
And march to war.

Then it's time I disappear.

Cloak of pain

I want to scream, but I can't even breath.
I'm not where I want to,
I'm not who I want to.
I ride sadness,
And from darkness,
I descend.

See it coming

That night I saw the end,

The sweet relief of the code.

But is was just a lure. 

Now I live in a nightmarish dream.

Trapped under ice.

A mix of pleasure and pain,

Reality and illusion.

It's time I disappear.

Destiny

A samurai is much like a cherry blossom. As the petals can be swept at the first sign of a storm, the samurai can loose his life quickly. Still, both are ready to do so, for this is their destiny.

Steel and Silk

The armor of a samurai is made of silk and steel. His character should be as his armor. He should always be ready to kill and be killed swiftly, but he should also be able to be smooth, soft, caring and polite. The complexity of this character is only attained through hard work and humility, as it demands to walk on a thin line, which separate the art of war, and the art of peace. So is the way of the Bushido.

Seppuku

You took away tomorrow, still I stand 
I drown into the sorrow, still I stand
I'll take a look to the sky 
Just before I die 
It's the last time I will 
Shoot me again, I ain't dead yet
Constant chill deep inside me

And now I see it's you
That's tearing me, opening me
This is me dying in your arms, 
I cut myself out now set me free.

Ready for this kiss

C'est dans le vide que se trouve la vertue.

Je suis venu au monde les mains vides
Je le quitte la vie à nue
Ma venue, mon départ -
Deux simples événements
Farfelus

Transcender

Pareil à la fleur du cerisier, prêt à mourir au premier souffle de la brise matinale.

A Night in Montreal

She came up in a dress made of light
I know like it was today
I was so out of myself

A whisper fell into my soul
And would lead a fine song
Speaking a strange language
And it felt good

When I left her skin
Spring bleeds in my mind
Like cherry blossom in Japan

Feeling awkward
But still I never regretted it

What if never saw you again?
I'll die right next to hope.

I Hate Me...

I've felt the hate rise up in me
Kneel down, bite the bullet and grin
I wander out where you can't see
In my armor, I wait, suffer and bleed

I've felt the hate rise up in me
Kneel down, bite the bullet and grin
I wander out where you can't see
In my armor, I wait, suffer and bleed

Anger

I wipe it off on a tile, the blade is brighter this time
Falling into blasphemy
My eyes are red and gold
This is not the way that I shoud be

I can't control my my head,
how the hell did I get here?
Something about this is wrong,
I wish I didn't like this.

I've felt the hate rise up in me
Kneel down, bite the bullet and grin
I wander out where you can't see
In my armor, I wait, suffer and bleed

Get outta my head 'cause I don't need this
Why didn't I see this?
Well, I'm a victim of my own weakness
I have sinned by just thinking this
I should take my life away

I've felt the hate rise up in me
Kneel down, bite the bullet and grin
I wander out where you can't see
In my armor, I wait, suffer and bleed

I've felt the hate rise up in me
Kneel down, bite the bullet and grin
I wander out where you can't see
In my armor, I wait, suffer and bleed

Anger

I haven't learned a thing
I haven't changed a thing
Bones are shattered
The pain is unleashed

I haven't learned a thing
I haven't changed a thing
Bones are shattered
The pain is unleashed

I've felt the hate rise up in me
Kneel down, bite the bullet and grin
I wander out where you can't see
In my armor, I wait, suffer and bleed

I've felt the hate rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can't see
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed

And it waits for you

Prohibited Sensation

She is able to read through me,
Pushing on my shame.
All the torment and the pain,
Leaked through and run from me.

I'd do anything to have her to myself,
Just to have her for myself.

Now I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do,
When she bring me peace.

She is everything to me
The unethical dream,
The diamond that no one see,
The unattainable.

She's a myth that I have to believe in,
Sirens in my storm.

I don't know what to do,
When she bring me peace,

But I won't let this felling grow up inside of me.
I won't let this feeling grow up inside of me.

A knife in my throat, bleed,
Torn into pieces, I won't.
I don't want to be this,
But I won't let this feeling grow ups inside of me.

She isn't real.
I can't make her real.
She isn't real.
I can't make my head clear.